You never wanted it in the first place did ya?

When I came back from the hole called Cunderdin, I didn't recieve a welcome back call, no nothing. When I started a new school I didn't hear "hows the new school?" before I started drugs and councelling All i get is one extremely emotional conversation on msn, and still after that, nothing.

2 years. And theres been close to no improvement. Many blog entries about my alienation, my life, and Oh, its a phase i'll get through, more alienation, ooh we didn't realise. Still nothing.

Nothing nothing nothing.

I go to asking whether I can bring my pc and maybe we can do something together for once? "omg jim your addicted to your pc you can play pc anytime omg you play games with randoms on the net why is lanning so special!?" It was all I had left to relate to you. 2 player co-op games don't work with 3 people, anyone knows that.

So next time, I am not bothing, I wasted 2 years reserving you both as my brothers, and neither of you came through, not even the heart to tell me it's gone.

It's gone, its engraved into my skull now, it wont ever come out.