I don't want to Succeed..

I don't want to be doing what I am now. It's fucking killing me. Working fulltime... it's shaping my life and I don't want it to be shaped, I don't want to know what tomorrow will bring, I don't want anything to do with anything. I just wan't to lay back, and forget about everything..

Right now, i'm not in the best of places, socially that is. After last nights events myself, and 3 of my closest friends, are practically targeted by gangs and the police for numerous things. I can't really be bothered in going into detail about last night, in short.. we started on someone who ran away, we went looking for them and somehow about 80 guys came looking for us. 80 on 4. Now that is fucked up.

but fuck, i'm so fuckin happy that I still have these guys by my side. If I didn't I would be fucked up in too many ways.

but, on a serious note.. something has to change, and I think it's me.