eh

lots has happened since my last posts.. nothing that great either.

mum passed away a few weeks ago.. im not sure how im dealing with it, i feel so empty now, everytime i think of her i want to call her or something, and tell her that I love her, and miss her, i never thought id ever say that about someone who almost ruined my life, but shes my mum, and she did her best to stay alive for me and my sister.

one of the things i feel so much worse about is that.. when it happened.. i was stoned.. and i had told myself that i would quit..

the funeral was 2 weeks or so ago as well..

other than that.. been drinking heavily, and i have quit weed this time. no job, but hopefully will get an apprenticeship in auto electrics that i applied for. car situation hasnt changed, poor baby is still sittin outside, and the reject child is still going.


I love and miss you mum.. i wish you were still just a phone call away..