Love.

When you put aside every selfish desire, every negative thought and any other distraction, then to simply feel and be here and now, and love everything inside that moment. It's not something that can be found externally, or in other people.
For me, I need to drop all my fiendish desire for other peoples acceptance, people who I respect. My social circuit was damaged by my parent's confused love.

Love can be expressed many ways by different people in this age, and not many of these loves actually manage to express itself, because it is such a powerful emotion that it's harder to cheat. People can say they respect and like another, and the emotional outputage will be enough to satisfy both without searching for more. Love, is something that if thrown around will end up hurting many people.
My father for example, has every best intention to love and happiness, but he doesn't know what either emotion really is! It hurt's me knowing that as much as he wants and says to really love me, my sister, his wife, that he can't because of his profound stupidity to not accept what hes seeing around him. I realise that when I was younger I never got the loving I needed from both parent's, and now I realise that because I can see the negativity that I need to find the right positive from somewhere within myself and replace it, so I can know love without any boundries.
My father has some great morals, but everyone has issues. People of the older generations know much less of love, and more of hate. Brutal punishments for things that could have been easily talked out as one example. Our generations parents complain of being beaten by their parents, teachers, and other forms of authority, whatever negativity that got stuck within them is now being put onto us, but in much more subtle ways, in their methods of what they think is the right way to be raised.
I was never beaten by my father, but his way of expressing his pain puts it onto me and my sister, as we are younger and don't have any authority over him, we cannot choose how we get this, because he is the control.
Now, thankfully I am older and wiser than I used to be, even this is coming with a price.
My father and step-mum don't seem to get along, ever since 1 night in paticular a long time ago things haven't been the same, and I worry for dad because Teena is one of the only things that seems to keep him happy.
I cannot make her stay, and I cannot put his own happiness over mine when he has the fullest oppurtunities to learn for himself.
What do I do if she leaves him? what will become of him and my sister? I am moving out of the house soon.. what will happen?
Only moving forward will tell, and I will be there for them.