Survival

The start of this week has suggested that I have some good shit coming up, I have some oppurtunities that I really should take... because recently, I haven't grabbed the balls of every possible success that has become known to me... I keep fretting over the stress of all the other details that come into the general scheme of things when I get into something new. For example, I am starting warehousing training on the 29th, at the same time, I need a job to pay my debts. I feel stressed knowing I have to juggle between both a course and a job, plus paying shit off and having time for friends.
Basically, I don't like the idea of doing so many things, because it just seems so overwhelming.
I guess it's obvious that I don't handle stress well at all.
Either way, I have a interview for a small casual job tomorrow morning. I am certain I will get the job, as it is just door knocking and asking for donations, it will also work around my study. So, that, I am happy about.
Next up is ofcourse, the training. In general, stores and warehousing is not my preferred work, I would rather do something with healing (counselling, massages, etc) but for now, those courses are going to take a while, and do cost a bit of dough. Dough I really don't have right now. Also, I have had experience with stores.. it's relativly easy shit, man.
So, once I finish this course, I will be able to stop door knocking and start a proper fulltime job, I will be able to clear my debts with the credit card, and my friends. My friends in-which, who have been with, and supporting me in this silly time of mine, I owe great grattitude to, I think I really would not have survived if it weren't for the support you all gave and give.
Also after this course I will be asking about psychotherapy, and possibly some anti-depressants. I think it's about time I really got stuck into my problems and issues. The main one is the bad feelings and not communicating effectivly. Theres many reasons, ofcourse, which is why I'm after this therapy, and the anti-depressants will make it easier for me to see my issues.

I have seen a psychologist, and he suggested the psychotherapy and AD's, I then realised that you can't just eat anti-depressants and feel fine, it just doesn't work like that. Maybe you will feel better, but those problems will keep persisting.
Which leads me to what I have done today, reading about what psychotherapy does. All in all, sounds like it could be very benificial. I think that the hardest part will be getting through a lot of paranoid delusions I came up with when I took drugs certain times.

So... yeah. My conclusion, and list of activities is as follows...
- Interview tomorrow for easy jobby
- Start, and complete my course
- Get my shit sorted with centrelink, as they are a bunch of fuckheads
- Get a job in stores once the training is complete
- Start psychotherapy and possibly AD's, put things into better perspective.

I guess I will see what happens from there.. but thats my survival plans for now.