My foot!

Some dickhead (cough..) didn't clean up all the glass when they broke a glass. Now, my foot is wrapped in a bandage.
I haven't ever had such a nasty cut, never had stitches before...
I don't think this one does, but fuck it bled lots.
It's not as bad as people might think it is, getting cut, it's a very very quick sensation of pain, then nothing. Not a dull pain, very sharp and quick..

The fact its in a bandage (the cut was too big for my winnie-the-poo band-aids) means I have a lot of trouble walking.. have to limp everywhere like a retard. Which, fucking sucks.. cause I had just mustered enough money to buy a pack of some lovely.. ciggies.. and I had planned to walk to the bp to purchase some. But nooo.. I had to jinx it by thinking "yeh, I have enough money, I could do with some walking, the fresh air, get that little bit more fitter.."

Getting a job at the moment is prooving to be quite a hassle, most places don't want to know you if you don't have you're own car. So, I'm going to attempt to make myself as fit, strong and healthy as possible. As many times as I have thought this, never really actually done much about it.. except using the rowing machine.

Over the time I worked with ansaldo, well.. over the time I slacked at ansaldo, I did a lot of obsessioning into who I am, or, what my problems are. Which is why I complain about it so much, I guess my problems have become who I am, which is sucky.

One of the things I came accross was depresonalization. Thats what this western world means by soul loss.. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Depersonalization

I remember being in that stage in the earlier time of working there, but I know I didn't cure it.. when I look around now it's not the way as described there, but somethings still weird. I can tell things are real and fine, but something else is there.. I think thats the HPPD
Which I NEEEED to get rid of. (link for it is on that page)
Not much study has gone into it, but from what I have studied, poked and prodded with myself, I believe it is something to do with the way my mind is, only certain people that think a certain way get it, I think its linked with depresonalization, personality disorders, and meme's.

nothing much else to say... hopefully my foot is better by tomorrow, So I can go to whitfords, make an appointment with the quack, and order the book I want in. AND BUY SOME SMOKES!!!