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It was my birthday yesterday! I am now 19.. not just a silly eager 18 year old anymore, who had just been shown the world and oppurtunity, no, I should have done something by now! something to contribute to my personal goals.
I have had a few jobs, very little relationships, fuck all with strengthening myself and friendships. It's really quite pathetic.
I have nothing to really show what I have done since turning 18.

I don't regret any of it, without all of my faliure I wouldn't have learned so much about people. I know that once I get better, i'll be able to use everything I have learned for the greater good. Not god, but for everything.
So, my party went OK, it was at Tim's on Saturday night. I had myself alcohol and codeine to start, then pills and weed, I then proceeded to put them all together into a coktail, and drank it with pleasure and not greed. I could name all the people present.. but they know who they are and aren't.
The next day (my actual birth day, sunday) involved a big drinking session with my old man, which was also fun, but he spoilt it by going to bed. How dull!?

So now, A new week has begun! seeing as I have just turned 19, I should be much more capable of acomplishing my desires. Which is getting money, training for something, and being a brighter person...
Tomorrow, I have to go back to video ezy and give them a stupid resume, I walked down earlier, and the young girl working said to come back with a resume, although she seemed a bit dumbfounded when I asked for work, obviously shouldn't have been left there alone.
After this, I have to make my way to Balga TAFE to enrol for a Autocad short course, which funnily enough starts Wednesday. This will be the first out of many courses I plan to do on this, which will make me a lot of money! Fucking ace, career path ftw.
After that, I am to meet Cheyanne at Kings Perth Hotel, as she is graduating from something called Landmark Education, I don't know much about it, but it's meant to have something in it for me, and if it does, what do I have to lose?
What i'm worried about is that they will probably give me a new frame of mind, one that I might not have had before, if this happens, I might lose something. Cheyanne said it won't happen, but I'm much different from anyone else I have ever met.
And this also sounds much better than getting my mind probed by a mental health agent.
Also, looks like my work with Scott has come to an end. The first week I used dexies to get through the day, and they proved to be useful. The second week however, didn't go so well, the boss told me I wouldn't be needed the next day, and probably the next day after that, I rang yesterday to see if I was needed this week, and I was told I would be rang back later that afternoon. Which he didn't.
I did my best for that.. I really did. I guess my personal best didn't cut it for that job, I don't regret it, It helped me stay a little less out of debt, but fuck them, worst working conditions ever.
I'll let you know how tomorrow goes..
Peace and love from you're nutjob Jim.

"For the average man, the world is weird because if he's not bored with it, he's at odds with it. For a warrior, the world is weird because it is stupendous, awesome, mysterious, unfathomable. A warrior must assume responsibility for being here, in this marvelous world, in this marvelous time."