So much for that...

Really thought something was going on for us there.. just for a little bit.
Something changed, and it wasn't quite the same after that.. perhaps you saw something you couldn't love. Maybe you saw you're own resentment.
Whatever it was, I felt it too, cause I could also see it in you, and despite that fact I wasn't going to let that stop us from progression. I wanted you. At least, for a little while.
And suddenly you were gone, perhaps I wasn't the trouble you were looking for.
I knew you were looking for something quite distinct from a lot of people I have met, and I knew I didn't possess this trait. Yet I tried anyway, the best I can to show you that the trait you were after was really.. just unreal.
In the sense that, it would hurt you. Again, and again.
So I did do my best, and you vanished.
Sometimes I'll see you're name flicker on my screen, and I will wonder really, why couldn't I separate those fine legs..
Or you're attachment to suffering for that matter.
And something came to me, without form or movement, more like a sudden flash of discovery.
It wasn't meant to work, it couldn't.
I'm not meant for you.

Much like another saga, it has come to it's closing, and a new beginning.
And the thing I like most is that you helped me find the trust I was looking for within myself.
I couldn't trust again unless someone let me get a little closer..

With this sense I am more open to letting myself fall yet again.
And I will know when it's real.