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Rise, fool
you can one day defeat you're demons.
Lacking of energy, lacking of life, you're everybodys fool
go die in a hole, no one will notice.
when it comes to thinking clearly, and fully, no one does.
all we do is attempt to do so, and end with the same apiphoneys, same shit.

nothing to do tonight.. was going to go to the rise but I can't get my pills until tomorrow, which is a shame, hardwars XI is on =(
I have 25 bucks.. thats it. I want to keep it for anything I may need tomorrow night, if I used it tonight.. 5 bucks for train in, 10 bucks to get in.. 10 bucks left.
thats no drinks, drugs, or cigarettes.
I'm so sick of being a fool, being in some stupid ditch everyone fears to look down, cause I might pull them down.

I might start writing my dreams down in here, I keep getting flashbacks through out the day of random things in them, and also, deja-vu. I have a feeling that a lot of my answers, a lot of things I don't figure out by myself, are locked in there. I have all the materials for making the key. Just a matter of doing it. after I start remembering the dreams, i can move on to lucid dreaming.. which will be fun =D