19 Jan 2010

Dram-at-i-c-a-l?

Can't stand it, yet it's everywhere and some people can't get enough of the shit.
It seems to me, Drama is more addicting than smoking ciggarettes, shaking the sasuage, or awesome video games.
I was on the train today, and I could hear that distinct drama tone in a female as she exited the train, speaking on her cell phone. Talking about someone who needs an "attitude adjustment".

I laughed, and I couldn't help but see all the dramatical situations I had been in, and am still involved in. Seeing how it divides people from really bonding.
Drama seperates us by constantly doing what I think of as.. "ignoring the point", or being bloody honest with youreself, you dipshit.
Keep trying to pin the blame on someone else, never accepting responsibility, or not seeing you're true issue, and masking it with something you saw on neihbours.. and you will die a lonely fuck.
Or maybe not, but you won't ever be fulfilled.

I constantly leave myself in posistion to be attacked or "dramatized", in these ways..
With my co-workers, this relates to the way I am with people. I just don't want to hear what they have to say 60 to 70 percent of the time, (it's been a whole lot better recently, I never used to listen at all) if I can't listen, then I won't get anything right. Me not being able to take on new ideas from other people restricts me from being active and getting my own ideas. Good conections bring about a good atmosphere, which increases the mental stimulation.
This applies to every area in my life, friends, lovers and even to what I am being when I am by myself thinking about how bored I am or how much I feel like jacking off right now, or maybe going and melting infront of the tv for a little bit.
Not much said nor done = no activity = no stimulation.. which ends up = boring, depressing.
Keep the same routine of not only you're activities, but for every way you do those activities, and you will surely become unhappy, or those around you will (because you refuse to see the point, everyone else can either feel it, or can see it. this doesn't mean they can see their own issues either).
My point being, becoming ignorant or forgetful of you're own issues doesn't fix the problem, it may feel like it for you, but for everyone else it can even become catastrophic.
Drama spells unhappiness and despair, the more drama = more pain = more unsolved issues = pain = never getting to the point = avoiding the truth..

Avoiding the truth to protect whatever you hide.

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